Five Years Old Forever

I had the weirdest dream last night

It was so strange. I dreamed that my husband had found a

way to separate himself into two people. One person was the

part of him that was an average guy; young sexy, and

self=confident and the other was the side of him that has

Asperger's Syndrome. This part of him acted much like a five

year old.

Anyway, for some reason I did not like the person that the

Average "Mat" had become, so I chose to stand by the side of

the other one. I spent so long trying to get him to love me,

and understand what our relationship was about and he just

could not understand. He was trapped inn his own mind and

could find no relief from it.

After what seemed like years he finally started to see how

much I loved him and how he reacted to only me. He began to

love me the way he did when he was two people in one. His

every word was for me and everything he did was for me.

Later on his father came to me and said, "talk to him, he

might remember something" so I went to him and asked him if

he remembered anything.

He said that he did and that he was bitten by some sort of

beetle which had given him amnesia and had affected his

intellect. He hugged me, and then after that I never saw

him again.

I wonder what this could mean. I felt so sad thoughout this

entire dream; like it was my fault that he became this way

and only I could undo it. Yet, when he left me, he had so

much peace and showed me more love and friendship than I have ever known. Is this a sign that my Matti may be growing up

and may grow apart from me in the coming years? I've felt

us slowly drifting lately, but I don't know what to do

about it. I don't want to lose him. He's the best thing,

literally, the best thing that has ever happened to me. I would die without him

Love Mrs. Durant