First Day

Its the first day... And I'm dying inside.1

Nervous about friends, ex's, classes, EVERYTHING!!!2

Only one class with him, good.3

I cant belive I still love him.4

Well it wouldnt hurt so much if I didnt right?5

Oh my god... I cant belive he's just starting at me.6

Can I just kill myself now please?7

He's been following me around all day and if we arnt going out anymore... I dont want to be friends with him.8

PLEASE just stop killing me...9

I never thought that the first day of school would be painfull because of someone I love... loved.10

Why cant I just get over him?11

Why do I have to still be in love with you matt??12

Author notes

Kind of like a diary intre more than a story but if you read it it might still affect you... good or bad?? I hate sometimes

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• gbird
  August 25, 2004
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  how cool..kinda how i felt when my boyfriend broke up with me and probably what ill feel like when i see him on the 7th...mand what a scary feeling.good write! bird
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  anti goddess
  August 9, 2004
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  interesting, but yes the wonder will still be there after the break up. seems after the break up the feelings get stronger. but as time passes you realize that it either wasnt meant to be or just fund someone who can fulfill all your dreams.
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  Slanted fears
  August 5, 2004
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  I hate to say this over and over again, because it makes me sound like a record on repeat, but it happens to everyone, the best of us. Its part of the "fun" involved with love. It always comes back to the fact that two people will never feel the exact same way about each other, which such. I'm sorry that you feel this way I hope you can get over him, of something happens to make you feel better. It was a sweet short write, nice job.
• picklypickle
  August 5, 2004
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  Oh good, it's a diary entry *sighs in relief*. In that case, it definitely describes how a person will feel on the first day of school with /that/ burden hangin' over their head. Yep - we all experienced it before.
  
  Despite the fact that it is a diary entry, I think it would do far better if it was worded in more of a story sense (Have you read 'Sloppy Firsts' by Megan McCafferty or 'Second Helpings'? Those are good examples of what I mean) You can still tell it with a feel of a 'diary' but, it's for more impactive if it was written more thoroughly, with good details.
  
  Don't get me wrong - this start certainly makes the reader ask for more - but it'll be more comfortable for many of us if you wrote it the way I said.
  
  Nevertheless, If you wish to achieve this effect, than certianly stay the way it is .
  Edited on Aug 05, 9:08 p.m. because 'heh .. oops!'.