Its a new year. Starting today. I think about the past I have and had, It saddens me to see the years pass on like its nothing but only the wind. The friendships I made and broken. I do regret those things, I truly do. I'm scared to leave the past behind. Like old little things getting dust caked on them. I spend my time at home, doing nothing but watch my life pass away before my very own eyes. I see the people I once knew drifting afar from me. This I guess is what " Moving On." is, I think about the past more and more each day. It chokes me up, all the Good and Bad memories I made with people are now.. just.. nothing. When people ask me a question's like, "What do you wanna do for life?" and I replay back, " I'm still thinking about it." Life for me, is a waste of humanity. I ponder about my relationship with people... To say the truth, I'm bad with them. I'm building a wall, a wall to keep the emotions I feel under a tight bottle so people I care for won't get hurt because of me. I believe I'm a bad person. I hate that fact, but to me it taste like the truth onto my tongue. I'm bitter to my sister(s) and my brothers, I don't really talk to them... my Aunt and Uncle... I fake a smile so I can hide what I truly am feeling. and my friends? I don't speak to them. Sure I have people I can talk too, but when I do.. I know that I will hurt them and they too will drift away. I know its my fault for acting such ways. Towards people I meet over the years. Its my very own fault for treating them like I did. This year, I have no idea what will happen I know their will be allot of Loughs,Hurting, and other joyous moments.
I have no comments on what I wan't to do for this New Year of 2011.
For those who I know, and who still,might,or hate me, Happy New Years.