"We're never so vulnerable than when we trust someone..."
~ Walter Anderson.
I've always been quite a naive person, but since I started attending university I've been selective about the people I consider friends and those who will stay in my life long-term. I, willingly, suffered enough toxic friends in my first 20 years, which has only led to unhappiness, so my trust and friendship have become... special commodities, shall we say.
However, what am I to do when I'm wrong? What do I do when someone portrays a friend, for years, so well it is worthy of an Oscar, and then takes advantage of that trust? I feel betrayed.
I feel stupid. I don't think I could have been more blind. I allowed myself to get into this situation. It could have been a lot worse. Dangerous, even. I may be overreacting, but I keep having visions of different scenarios that could easily have played out. Now, I'm really parnoid. Everytime I hear a car pass by or someone at the door my heart tries to break from my chest.
