One of many mistakes made

My name is Brenden, my life has been a bit odd and random but I wont go into that tonight. Tonight I want to go into a small mistake the mistake the came before it is much worse and efected many lives other then my own.

Tonight I went into my myspace email way back to the very end. Just about 2 years ago. I was just looking around I guess but deeper i knew what I was looking for. I was looking for old emails from Victoria. Before july of 2007 they are of freindship laughing talking about life and what will be do after high school that year so on and so forth.

Then I saw it a blank spot. The spot was started on july 7th 07 yes i did notice tha date and april something "I forgot to look at the day" Of 2008.

The space that was missing was me falling in love with her and devolping this fragile happyness she had during deep deprestion taking bout killing her self all that but me never giving up and every one else leaving.

Then in 08 I leave to go to CT and now a year later I am back she is married i'm not there is much more. but that space crushed me tonight it was like time that made me turn from a boy to a man no one knew what we had but for our close friend...

She loved me and I was blind to see it and I left.

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