I wanna to blend in with my surroundings but I can't since I am soooo fat.
I want to just sleep, but I can't dream.
I've been crying almost everyday. And it's because of such a dumb reason, too.
I was crying because of everything around me is changing.
I remember my happy moments with my friends and what we were like when we first met.
They have changed so much and I am terrified that we will drift away from each other.
I have changed, too, but they know everything about me.
What will happen once we, if we, grow apart?
I know it's life but I don't think I can handle loosing someone else.
I want to change too, though.
I want to be positive, keeping the negitivity lock away.
I want to dwell in happiness, and be set free from the pain.
I need to remember, I need to forget.
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dude,i agree, after my grandad passed it felt like i could litraly watch everything change right before my eyes, while i'm helpless to do anything. thank you for putting this in words.
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That is so weird. Pretty much everything you said is exactly how I've been feeling, nearly word for word actually. I feel your pain.
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