F* U

I'm so sorry that I care. I hate the fact that I care the way I do. It seems that no matter what I do, I'm wrong. I get hurt. So I am just going to isolate myself, be with my fiance, and that's all. When I get to the dorms, I'm just going to sit in my nice little chair at my desk with my laptop and do useless things with my time. I might even do my homework. Anyone who actually WANTS to be my friend and WANTS to be a part of my life, fine, but this is the end. I'm sick of this shit. I'm sick of being lied to over and over and over again. I will NOT get played into somebody's friendship just so they can get pity when things don't go their way! I give my advice, and nobody listens. I try to be a friend, and it gets shoved down my throat. It freaking pisses me off!!!!! But again, certain people could care less. Don't waste my time.

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  • TwiztidMaggot
    July 31
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    I know just how this is... I hate it...


  • Little Blue Bird
    June 14
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    Zhanis, I care and it's good that you do. I listen to your advice and sometimes take it. I am sorry I haven't been on much and talked with you a lot. I have a lot going on in my life right now, but you are my friend and I love you as such. I miss talking with you. If you've read my journals you see that I am a busy mommy. Some days I am just too tired to even try to get online. Keep your chin up friend, life isn't that bad, I promise. BIG s for you.


    • zhaniswolf
      June 14
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      thanks, bird. I was going through some rough stuff with a couple that were involved in our lives (mine + fiance's). We had been trying to help them but they just shoved advice in our faces. Gah!

      • Little Blue Bird
        June 14
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        Yeah believe me I completely understand. We just recently went through a very similar to what your talking about, we are finally out of that situation. Things will get better. And they will realize you were right.

  • Avarus L. Katier
    March 31
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    whoa zhanis whats going on bro dont let shit get to you like this man it aint worth it

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