I am not quite certain how I feel of all this stuff, what stuff, you may be asking. Well it all has to do with groups and I have gotten thinking, because a friend asked me a question ealier today on how I am feeling, as I have been thrust suddenly into an activity of, of. Well thats just it, I never thought about it, I just said yes to something that sounded innocent.
I almost feel like I am over my head, like I'm drowning. Perhaps this is do because I hate change. Perhaps the hawk outside my window this morning, has become a symbol to how I feel. I don't know. I am begining to feel that I do not need a group, or group activity on the computer to help me write better. I have an "If it ain't broke don't fix it policy." But even though I have developed friend ships in the group, I am seriously thinking of leaving all groups. Every thing in life demands time, I tend to neglect alot of stuff. I find great comfort and solace from a good old fashioned book. Turn the pages and learn the histories of various fictional characters,
perhaps it is time that I lifted my self into action, quite like the halk out my window and search for my identity, I feel I've lost it some where along the way.
I do not enjoy my new responsibilities, I sort of feel pigeon holed and frozen. It took an innocent question to let me see it. My friends know who they are, and the one that asked the question knows. It is time for me to know it as well. I think its time for me to stand on my own, for my own reasons. I apoligise to any who may be baffled by my actions, but to me it seems clear. I have too much on my plate at once and will lend my self to my own advice, If I am not happy, then I must do something about it!
Sorry, Bear, Ron, Sandi, Jeff, Franz and Richard.
I must go, wander the woods
recharge my batteries,
and rediscover my life.
I will still be on AP
And available to chat
But I also feel I do not need
the comfort of a group.
So I am vacating all four groups that I am in.
Please understand, I simply lost touch.
--Robert
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Be blessed dear heart.
I have been where you are now. I broke away from all groups and felt a great freedom. It is a good thing. Now I just visit here and there but do not allow myself to get tied down.
- Joanne -
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Hey Big Guy......thank you for shring your heart with me.....with us.....you have touched me deeply, and I soooo relate.....I am so glad God sent that Hawk and friend to ask you the simple question which changes HUGE ways of thinking in our lives -
I support what you are doing.....I have tried to break free myself......but I have not had the courage you just showed us......maybe soon, as I want to move on and be where God wants me to be, and not where I feel obligated -
You know where I am anytime you feel like chattin......or.... 818) 773-0929 (hm)
You are a blessing no matter where you are.....and your spirit is strong...
...you are where you are, because, that's where you're supposed to be -
God is with you.....and His Spirit is inside you........you are not alone.....God bless you in abundance Bro......Love,
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Go with our love and friendship, then...
We will surely miss your cheery smile along with your messages, Robert, but I'm sure we all understand how being given group tasks can unfairly place pressure on the few to serve the many.
After all, we are all simply here to share our work with each other and keep our inspiration alive. So we do understand, and hope that you will come and visit now and again and keep us up to date with your successes as a lovely writer and poet.
Lou x
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Good on you, mate.
Go the way your heart and mind tell you. I wish you well. God bless.
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