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Just rambling.

 

 

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I wear low cut shirts/blouses/dresses alot. Its a thing I've always done. It makes me feel sexy, plus I have a slight claustrophobia thing so anything close to my neck for too long freaks me out.

 

After three or so men oogling my chest I get annoyed. Its my own fault.

 

One of my exes flipped out a few months after we started dating. He told me that I was his girlfriend and there was no need to wear such low cut shirts anymore because he was the only person allowed to look at them. That caused a huge fight.

 

I still wonder at the audacity of some men; but women aren't much better. First of all, we do put ourselves in that position. Like the time my friends, and myself, were walking across the ontario mills mall parking lot and a man honked his horn and shouted out the window "hey baby" at me because I was wearing an awfully short skirt. (To be honest I didn't realize how short it was until the next time I wore it)

 

Secondly women look at men the same way. I used to go to rodoes with my girlfriends. We were always talking about the guys and sizing them up and stuff. Sure, we were highschoolers, but now that we're in college it isn't too different.

 

I've realized that I feel more secure when I'm in a relationship because when random strangers hit on me I can always hide behind my boyfriend. When I'm scared I can't lie well; strangers usually scare me.

 

Although I found out that doesn't always help. I was engaged to an older guy for about six months, he gave me a ring and everything. People always assumed I was already married and commented on it. That still didn't help the oogling or flirting from strangers. Not just men either, I get hit on by women as well.

 

In highschool I got called a slut. It was because I had sex with my bestfriend of three years/boyfriend of one year. Those naysayers were having one night stands with each other constantly, and then some. Funny how hypocrasy works. They just think that because I'm a bigger girl than they are that I'm unnatractive and must put myself out there to every guy that gives me a second glance. Pfft. I've heard that girls like that are insecure; to them I have to say that I may not be very secure but I'm secure enough in myself not to sleep around.

 

I'm sorry I don't have much positive to say in this entry. I just needed to get that off my chest. And yes, the pun was intended lol

 

 

 

 

 

 

Much Love, Katie

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