Life is hard. Every day is a battle for survival and the winner only gets to see another day. I used to take that for granted. Who cared whether the sun would rise or set? No biggy.
For me to say that now, I would be lying. And I owe it all to Brandon.
Brandon is my best friend. He's always the first one lined up to right my wrongs or solve my problems. He'll knock out - or, sadly, kill - anyone who hurts me, and for this and too many reasons to list, I love him.
Only now...he has cancer. Not the kind that can be shaken off, but the kind that ends your life quickly. In his case, it was six months starting at the end of August.
It's hard to smile and pretend like I'm not sad while I watch him suffer, struggling through his treatments, but this was his request. To let him live-on normally. He doesn't milk his condition or try to go on a vactaion, he only goes to school, and spends time with me and our other friends day-in and day-out. He's the first person I see in the morning, and the last person I talk to at the end of the day. I can't even count the number of times he's fixed this bloody computer.
Now his sight is gone from one of his gorgeous blue-eyes and it breaks my heart. I try to seem unaffected, but how can I not be? This person who used to lean on no-one, now needs a crutch!
Cancer is frustrating, and it'll only get worse from here. Yes, I'm in counceling, no I don't talk during theses sessions. I have nothing to say, but.....just a little longer. Please, just a little longer.
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