no I'm not scared or anything... but anywho... i keep having panic attacks, they SUCK! I swear, they need to put me back on my damn meds. ugh. I hate having anxiety, it SUCKS balls. oi. anywho... I Need to start doing something about this... it's getting tiring having panic attacks every fuckign day. I'm tired of feeling constricted and unable to breathe! I need to get out some emotions. The other day, this guy started texting me, right? well, he started going on about wanting to fuck me and eat me out and shit... I"m like "OKay??? wtf?" and he's telling me I knwo I wanna do it, when I fucking don't! ugh, it pisses me off! What am I to guys these days? A fuckign whore?! I'm not! I get tired of guys thinking that i"m easy and shit, and they all know I"M fucking engaged! ugh, it makes me SO angry! I knwo that's one of the reasons I"ve been freakign out so damn bad. I Hate it! I told Jason about it, oooooh, he got PISSED! but can you blam ehim?!?!?! shit. idk what the hell is wrong with me these days... *sigh* I"m tired, freaking the fuck out... just ugh. What can you say to help me feel better???
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This is awful!! Well the first thing I would do was to change my phone number so that these people get the message that you do NOT want to have them contact you in this way ever again!! Telling your Fiance was a good thing sweetheart as it is always good to be honest in a relaionship. The panic attacks are awful, all my children have suffered from them and my mother, I guess I have too to a certain degree, I know what depression is I have been there!
My daughter takes medication for her attacks and is sounds like you did too so I should deifinitely get back to your doctor. My son was helped by using breathing exercises to calm himself down. When you see your doc ask for these as they are great, they really work by calming you down. Get you fiance to do them with you
Start enjoying your engagemnet and stop worrying about these idiots, concentrate on those you love. If you have to throw your old phone away. If they see you happy with your Fiance they will stop, and if they continue call the police as they are sending you unwanted obscene messages and that is illegel!
Good luck dear and God Bless
Cherry
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