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Ah Hah! God I love those moments. They thrill me as much as they did "way back when" I was just starting to figure things out. I’m not close to finishing the figuring out - not by a long shot - but getting a skylight when I expected the door to some secret room with some uglies in it – well that is just a really good -- Ah Hah! moment. 1

I belong to this group, just for women, called Phenomenal Women. MIM started this thread on disguises, and if I dressed up as the real me what would I look like. I went for a stroll on the net looking for what I’m not sure, then I happened upon this picture and THWACK it reached out and grabbed me. When I made the connection to the disguise question – well it shook my tree, spooked me. "Now from just where did that come?" I asked myself.2

It’s the pic for the blog, and she is called “Liquid Girl.” She resonated to the Nth degree. I was taken with the fluidity, her color, the oozing of the watery melt, and the energy ball. Then my brain did a and I went on an Eeyore excursion looking for the bogeyman, the fracture in my psyche.3

I have a lot on my mind lately. The biggest being asked to take a position in management – doing something I had not really given any thought to at this time in my life. I had openly sought such a position in my younger years but then put all of that on a back burner to raise a family. Now all of this time has passed and I am more into thoughts of winding down and not revving up. But being asked was such a high, and I thought just saying thanks but no thanks and hugging the request to me like a guilty pleasure would be enough. Well seems I am not as opposed to revving up as I thought. My children are all raised. My husband though he will be retiring from one endeavor soon already has another in the works. We both like the entanglements of the work-a-day world still. Anyway I re-read my blog from a day or so ago and there was this:4

"That would not be so bad either as in some things being defined really is setting a spirit free. I will undoubtedly find out, because not to give it a go well then I would be left with wondering and if – and those are shackles." ~ Me5

I think I know now in part where my brain was when I laid eyes on the “Liquid Girl” and a little of why I felt such an affinity – liquid is defined by the vessel – I am the vessel, and I define.6

God this was a lilttle like living in the "There's A Monster at the End of this Book"7

Goodnight EEyore!8

Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood. ~Marie Curie9

To fear is one thing. To let fear grab you by the tail and swing you around is another. ~Katherine Paterson, Jacob Have I Loved10

Panic at the thought of doing a thing is a challenge to do it. ~Henry S. Haskins