karma = love

So last week the power company called and said they were going to turn off my power, because my bill was late. BECAUSE I HAVE NO FUCKING MONEY AND NO ONE WILL HIRE ME. Ahem. So anyway, I was seeing my psychiatrist and he faxed them a letter saying that I'm insane and they should give me more time. So they turned my power off today. WTF.1

Anyway, I get woken up at 8 AM when everything shuts down (my computer, my fan, all my white noise that drowns out my asshole neighbours upstairs). I have like 3 hours of sleep on me, I feel like shit, I can't even get the number for the lawyer that can turn it back on, because my internet runs on power. Along with my heat, my stove, my fridge. My EVERY FUCKING THING. I'm panicking because I can't sleep in the dark so I always leave my lava lamp on and some candles and sometimes a light. ARG.2

So I fall into this restless sleep and have a dream that the power is still on in the living room where Sophie is, so everything will be okay. But then I wake up. And feel SO disappointed. And go into the living room because Sophie is yelling "DOWN" which means, get your ass up and set me free! Haha. AND THE POWER IN THE LIVING ROOM IS ON. Holy fucking shit. I had to sit on the floor and cry. This means that my UPSTAIRS NEIGHBOURS ARE ACTUALLY PAYING FOR IT. HAHAHAHAHA. Instant karma, baby. And Sophie's dad worked in construction, so I still have some of his big-ass construction power cords. Now they're paying for my fridge and my computer! Stick that in your pipe and smoke it!3

My mom says I never learn from things because the world always gives me an out. It's true. Whenever things get too bad, something happens that gives me a little more time. I little breathing space. A little out to get through the worst of it. And I'm so fucking grateful.

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  • nolazydaizy
    October 27
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    i love that you use the word fuck almost as much as i do. here's to breathing room.

    • philosphyofkate
      October 27
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      Haha. It's true! Except that the other day Sophie was sitting on the counter with my dad and I and she dropped her cracker and said, "Oh fuck." and then just went on. My dad looked at me and was like, "Did she say that? She just said that." Ooooooops.

      • nolazydaizy
        October 27
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        i suppose that's terrible but i happen to think it's fantastic, lol. perhaps that's why i don't have kids. i seem to remember you saying that the most important thing you wanted your child to learn was kindness. so you'll have a sweet, kind little girl who curses like a trucker. i'd say that balances out pretty well, lol.

        • philosphyofkate
          October 28
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          well, she is the only 1-1/2 year old i know who can go to the dog park and pet all the dogs nicely and doesn't mind getting knocked down. she's such a doll. and my dad and i laughed our asses off, so... that's good. she's going to swear. i do, a lot. esp in the car! but that's an okay outlet for frustration, i think. and i never say, "so and so's a bitch" i'm just like, "OH FUCK ME"

  • Allyce May
    October 27
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    ! Karma is a bitch or a blessing, depending which side of it you're on. Aww IT'S A SIGN - you need your computer to WRITE MORE!

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