im content for the moment.1
hm..lets see how long that will last.2
maybe my writing will help me. 3
im just sitting here, 9:18pm in the u.s. randomly typing away, since i have nothing better to do and i dont feel like writing any of my stories. i haven't written much lately now that i think about it..hmm. :-I maybe i should make a book that revolves around my character and feeling. i sarted to in violet blooms but i dont have a family that fucked up nore do i have to leave the house eveyr night in order to keep my siblings safe. im in a normal family with a alot of pressure from the world and whats happening to my family.
-sigh-4
cant a 14 yar-old live a normal life5
but no.6
im shut from the outside world cuz im 2 busy and i barely have any friends, i have a low selfesteem, suffering from depression that my parents nor friends know about [or the hurting myself. well some of my friends know about that], and my older sister is trying to tear my family apart. not only that but there is something wrong with me. some of my fingers are peeling and bubbels show on my middle finger, and not only that but i either loose feeling or get this horrible pain in my wrist and hand or even my head. like someone is trying to kill me with a hammer.7
please give me a gun. i just need to shoot myself and join my fellow personalities in the depths of tarturus[hell]. either thast or ima snap on some1.8
maybe my gaurdian angel will come and help me in this curel cruel world -dramatic-9
not.10
i'm hungry.... me off to eat
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