i need help please.

i feeel like im jst to nice to people i let them step on me and i dont do anything about it. and it is a just a thing with me. i can never stand up for myself and i have all these people yelling at me. i just hate be yelled at. it makes me feel so small. so stupid and unimportant. i want to go back to hurting myself but i know im better than that. 1

it is just to hard to keep from snapping under this pressure. 2

and people just look at me from my outer character and go 'oh she cant be the tyype to be insecure if she acts that goofy.' or 'she seems to positive for this and this' and they act like i cant cry. 3

i-i just dont know what to do. my mom depends on me to much now that i know how to cook, do laundsry, babysit and clean without a problem [she is now goigng back to skool and is either in class or taking tests for skool so i control most things in the house] and i feel like im being forced to grow up to fast. its just to frustrating. and the fact that everyone is pushing stuff on me and this highschool applications coming up just makes it worse. 4

i just want to be a normal kid that people dont trust with responsiblilities, but i cant seem to get myself to change. to stand up for myself. 5

can anyone help me with this?6

i dont want to hurt my mom or anyone esle, but i dont want to hurt either...

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  • Indecisive
    September 29
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    I feel as though your mom is in skool furthering her education so she can make and provide a better life for you and if you have any sisters and brothers. I know its hard but you have to bear with it. Look at it this way....since you've learned how to cook and clean and stuff its actually actually helping your mom. I understand it's alot of pressure for your age but with today's economy, times are hard. im not saying you guys are struggling, but why kick out the extra unnecessary money for a housekeeper or babysitter? So my advice to you is bare with it sweetie. This is life. and sometimes it aint easy.

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