Reality

I picked up the phone to call Mom tonight.  It is hard to realize that she is really physically gone. I know her spirit surrounds me.  Yesterday while I was at her house helping to clean up for Blake, Richard and Teena were here.  Richard was in his recliner and he heard the front door open.  He turn his head but couldn't see anyone and said "Hello".  Teena came into the living room to see the door close.  When she opened it, there was no one there.  I guess Mom decided to come over here to get out of the dust.

I have just been numb this week.  I hope next week will be easier.  I know she is gone and I miss talking with her.  She was my support and my rock. We were blessed that she died as she prayed she would in her sleep very peacefully. 

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  • Bethany
    January 31
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    Aw, i'm sorry for your loss. I hope that you can move on and feel better. =[


  • TeenFailure
    January 31

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    Aww, you will always miss her but as time passes the pain will lessen it will never fully go away, The saying time heals all wounds, is true, it heals the wound but it says nothing about making the missing going away or the fact that it happened. But with time it will become eaiser to deal with and your gonna have those days that you miss her more then ever and when that happens its going to be okay, its normal. Just remeber she loved you, and she'll be still looking out for you, and even though shes not physically there she can still be your rock and sort of a support.
    RIP Skye01s Mom, you'll be missed.
    PS If you ever wanna talk message me

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