"I Won't Be Your Moneky Wrench"

Currently Listening too: Monkey Wrench by the Foo Fighters

 

Album: The Colour and the Shape. 

 

"One last thing before I quit
I never wanted any more than I could fit
Into my head I still remember every single word
You said and all the shit that somehow came along with it
Still there's one thing that comforts me since I was
Always caged and now I'm free"

 

 

Ehhhh, High School, does it get any easier?

And I'm not talking about the academic process, I have that part down to the T.

 

I literary have four and half months left and I'm finally free. I will finally be on my own, in the real world, in College....and out of Pine Bush. The thought of just that makes the little hairs on the back of my neck stand up.

 

The downfall of this major change is that I will be leaving behind a good group of great people. Since moving to my current High School two years ago, I have finally met a group of friends that are truely great people. These are people I could truely speed time with ten_twenty years down the road.

 

The reason why I think High School was a pretty pain in the ass was because of my bad streak with relationships. Many of the guys I've dated, liked, or "hooked" up with are either in the army, drop-outs, total players, pot heads, or just plain fucked up guys. For some reason I attract the bad guy types_which in a way makes sense.

 

When you first meet me, you will have two different views on me:

 

1. I'm a good girl. I listen to everything my parents say, and chances are I'm a virgin_basically I'm pure, innocent, and to many guys I'm cute.

 

Cute and sweet are two favortites of the many guys I've liked. But really, as a eighteen year old senior, I don't want to hear cute from a guy anymore.

 

2. I'm a bitch. I get good grades and chances are I'm waaaayyyy smarter than you. I think guys are iminated by me.

 

 

In Reality...

 

In a sense, I do have the girl-next-door quality. I respect myself enough to realize I can't throw myself at every guy who comes in my view. It's probably why I haven't had a lot of strong relationships. I'm not willing to take some guys bullshit and than sexxx him up.

 

However I have done my share of bad girl moments, but a lady never kiss and tells.

 

I guess I wouldn't mind if a guy, for once, see's me as sexy (believe it or not I'm a sex pot hahahaha)...or more so beautiful...

 

Instead of some cute little girl whose is so naive that they are willing to have sex with the first guy who tells her they love her.

 

Please get over yourself.

 

The first guy almost tricked me, but I saw behind he's fascade.

 

 

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  • Adrien-Ethos
    January 28

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    I know what you mean. ''Cute'' is a word I would use with my 5 year old daughter. If I used ''cute'' when describing a woman, there would be something going on... and whatever it is, it's either weird or bad.

    Now, I cannot say I shared the same streak of bad relationships with girls, because I only had a relationship with one, since I was 16. Yes, I married my high school sweetheart... now how cliché is that? LOL

    • bloved
      January 28
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      Thanks for you response. I'm glad someone else understands where I'm coming from. I asked some of my friends, who are mostly guys, and they really don't understand why I would get upset if a guy calls me cute. They saw it as a compliment, which I know it is, but it is also a slap in my face.

      Awww that's actually pretty sweet that you married your high school sweetheart. You rarely hear about that anymore. Yes it is cliche, but if she made you happy and it was love, who the hell cares.

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