I can't stand you bringing me down anymore.

It was all you.
I perked up to your.fucking.name.
Every time, you'd leave without saying goodbye.
Like you don't give two shits what I feel.
I put up with it and got over it.
We always got into an argument, and you messed up my head, so much so I attempted suicide, but the one thing I failed to mention.
It.Was.All.Because.Of.You.
I liked you. And you liked me.
But then you went and got a girlfriend, so I cried myself to sleep.
Then you broke up with that girlfriend, and I thought damn, this could be my chance.
So I hinted. And hinted. And hinted.
I even lied to you so you would give me attention.
So you would fucking notice me through the crowd of runner-up girls.
All my friends, who don't know you, hate you.
Because whenever I talk to them you have already brought-me-down.
There's no stopping the mental anguish you caused me, up&down&left&right like a stomach-churning roller coaster.
You say you have a problem, but there's no point.
Because you won't let me help you.
And that's the one thing I most can't stand about you.
But I can't stand so many things.
I'm stepping off this roller coaster, and if you don't stop it, I'll take off my seat belt and jump off myself.
I can do it myself. Don't underestimate me.

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  • Naznomarn
    September 8
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    You're making me sad T__T
    And
    I'd be even sadder if you went. =[

    WE LOVE YOU!!


  • Guilty Pleasure
    September 7
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    You shouldn't take your own life over him.
    He's DEFINITELY not worth it.

    I guarantee you, once you're as happy as you can possibly be, his sorry ass is gonna be running back to you, hoping that maybe you'll care... but then he'll realize he doesn't deserve it for all the pain he caused you.

    You're obviously a great girl, and you've got a lot going for you -- so don't give that up because some jackass is in your way. These kinds of moments are most memorable because once you've hit rock bottom, there's nowhere but up from there...

    Hope everything works out for you, deary :]


  • Fallen-Thumper
    September 7
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    Ahhh! STAY!
    Haa, i can relate to the first part so well and im sorry hes causing you all this shite. Its not fair at all and dont kill yourself even if it his fault, jump off the rollercoaster and land on the cotton candy stall. =)
    You are better foe him, if hes not payinf attenotion to you than hes missing out on a great girl Keep your head up and talk to someone about this and let it out of your system, if he wont accept you or take your help then hes at a great loss.
    xxx

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