Thanks a lot Best Bud's

I haven't written a lot lately, and feel really bad because I probably should, because maybe if I said everything outloud it would make more sense. But .. I cant.
I cant explain it to you guys, but pretty much what is happening right now is; My two bestfriends relationships have changed a lot in the last few months. I feel that if I tell her that it bothers and upsets me sometimes that she will feel like I'm not supporting her in this, and that i'm not happy for her, but I AM. But not telling her is slowly making me more and more stressed over it.1

I know for a fact that I have gotten better with it, because whenever she would come to me telling me things, I would freak, and I would get stressed, and worried but now I just accept it and ... pretend to move on.2

I'm happy for her, believe me, I just worry. This has proven to me that I'm defenatly the 'mother hen' in this friendship of five (Which is kind of ironic because I'm the youngest of the group).3

Another thing that has started to bug me is my other best friend. He's a complete hypocrite, and can't take anything seriously if his life depended on it. For example, if my boyfriend and I are hanging out with them and if he even puts his arm around me, he will get angry with us and complain about having to deal with our 'couple-ness', being third wheels. Why is he a hypocrite you might ask? Because he's the one that tried for almost five months to get my boyfriend and I together because he thought it would make us both very happy. I asked him and made sure on many seperate occassions if he was alright with this, and if he would be okay with being a third wheel at times, and he said he wouldn't mind, and now he's constantly complaining. 4

And also, i cant forget the fact that him and my other bestfriend are constantly acting like a couple (even though they are not dating, nor should they because the two of them both have other relationships on the side - many complications with that I cannot explain) with me there and I always feel like a third wheel.5

Example? Last night the three of us were sitting in the car (my boyfriend was at work that night) trying to decide where to go for dinner and they were fighting and kissing, and SOMEONES hand was down the OTHERS pants an I am just sitting there staring out the car window, acting as though I DON'T want to commit suicide. I actually opened the car door to stand outside the car so they could have a little moment, but when i did the two of them got angry. I forgave them, being the friend that I am, then she invites him to some family event a few days later with me in the car. You know, it doesn't even upset me that I wasn't invited, what upsetted me was that she always goes on about how she never makes plans infront of someone who is not invited to something, because its rude, and she follows through to that word, except with me. Thanks a lot buddy. Really appreciate it. 6

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