Random Crapppppp

So my friend Justin is leaving. No offense to him or anything, but I think school will be a lot easier without him as a distraction and maybe I won't fail every class this time. Though I do believe I'm pretty much HOPELESS at this point. 1

I can't even go to Cumberland Farms without a guy whistling at me. I know some girls would dream for this to happen to them just once, but personally, I can't stand it. All the men that live near me (well, most of them) are complete pigs. They look me up&down and whistle and grin and it creeps me out so bad. 2

My friend DJ (who I have a crush on) tried to kill himself today. I'm talking to him online right now. He slit up his wrist (which is more dangerous) and tried to kill himself which completely terrified me. Why would he want to die? I asked him, and he said no reason in particular, except his ex-girlfriend's been giving him a lotta crap. I can't really help with that, and I feel horrible about it, I can't do anything. All I can say is I'm here for him, and he never wants to talk about things anyway. 3

I'm babysitting my little sister for a whole week. I feed her three meals a day, clean up her messes & clean up what was already there. The sink isn't working, so I've been putting all sorts of dishes in the dishwasher and the piles continue to grow. Sometimes I wish I could just stop time and take a break without having to worry. I also have to make sure she's never bored, which is quite hard with a 7 year old. Playground visits, pool playing, video games, coloring, reading, computer. It's just so hard, and I'm ecstatic about having a day off. Which is technically only about a half a day. 4

After I get paid for babysitting, I'm probably going to buy a new iPod. I'm still not sure which color yet - not purple or green, because my sister has purple and my last one was green. I've saved up my money for a while, but I'm mowing the lawn in the next few days and I'm using the money I'm getting for the mall with friends, which I'm hopefully going on Tuesday, but I haven't asked everyone yet. I asked Jyllian, she said yes. I asked Justin, he said his dad won't let him go without an adult supervisor, which I think is completely stupid - we're not babies. Anyway, Justin probably won't be coming for that reason. Michelle will probably be able to come And I'm estimating Katherine as a 50/50 chance cause she's usually busy with stuff. So I'm glad to (hopefully) be getting together with friends soon. I haven't asked my mom yet, I forgot. But she'll probably let me. 5

I'm so tired, but I don't want to sleep, but I also know I should. So...ttyl. <3

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