1.20.09

i fight battles with you that obviously i can't win.
i tried to create perfection with you but you have
proven time and time again that i'm not worth the time.
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i guess this explains how i feel, i'm losing someone because he's stuck on someone else. but a piece of think that this is for the best. i'm sick of crying and wondering why me and him aren't together... and today the truth came out, and now i can't stop crying. i feel so stupid, i let this stuff get to me over and over again. and now..i dont know if i'm ever going to take the l-word path ever again. it always ends the same way... they come they hurt the leave...

and this time i don't think i can recover this

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  • Kiss the girl--x
    January 24
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    maybe it is for the best?

    everything happens for a reason, you've just got to focus on the positive reasons i guess...

    remember to smile
    ♥


  • Nocturne Moderators member
    January 20

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    Just let it go. Accept what has happened and let it go. You've loved, you've learned and it's something to make you stronger, more brilliant a personality, not break you. Let yourself have the time you need, but don't let yourself become bitter

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