I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight
Sigh. Music and animals are the only thing going right in my life right now. I don't know why I'm so depressed, except maybe because I'm so cold. Or that I've been up all night the past three nights. Not a full hour of sleep.
Or maybe its because I'm way overdue with this journal. I feel like no one wants to read because 1. I'm a 29 year old with a very uninteresting life, and 2. because... I don't know. But around holiday time, everyone was reading my stuff, and it was probably because of all the drama.
Maybe its because I'm tired of everyone being right, except for me. And I'm just tired of being at the bottom. Or maybe its because I keep overusing the words 'or maybe'. Or maybe- there it is again-.... I forgot this reason.
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused
I don't know. I've got NO MUSE, and even if I did, no one would read it anyways.
I remember that reason: Or maybe its because I'm writing this damn pity part journal. I don't know.
Can you figure it out for me?
-sigh-
I need sleep. But I've got a patient coming in in a few.
Music: Goodbye by SR-71 (The lyrics are from Breaking the Habit- Linkin Park
Food: None
Drink: None
TV: None
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