1:44 am.


i slam my pen down and press my palms to
my forhead lately because the sight of you
behind my eyelids sends my thoughts to
only you, and then i begin to shut down
completely.
--
its because of you that i still believe in fairytales
and baby i wouldn't have it any other. every
girl needs someone to save her eventually, even
when she's too proud to know it.
--
i reinact caused scenes over and over again

to figure out to fully understand why you have

yet to let me go. i'm far from unique and occaisionally

i fall over things. i have the tendency to rush into

falling in love and i hate not being close to you...

though there's a little voice inside my head screaming

"maybe that's why he's still holding on"
--
i hate it when i'm silent, because at that at exact moment

i'm thinking of every possible thing i should say to you but

i freeze up and i can only think of random things that make

me slightly more neurotic than my usual. words overlap

themselves on the tip of my tongue and are always on the

verge of falling out, but in the end all they will spell out is

i want to be your perfect imperfection.

--

i think i set myself up to hear you say honey-coated words

just so when my eyes are clouded with rain i can smile.

 

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  • Kiss the girl--x
    January 24
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    this is so beautiful, your thoughts read better than my poetry anyday.

    'i reinact caused scenes over and over again
    to figure out to fully understand why you have
    yet to let me go. i'm far from unique and occaisionally
    i fall over things. '

    i do that^...including the falling over stuff bit...i think ashley counted how many times i hurt myself in like six hours...it was vaguely depressing lol...but i managed to not fall down his stairs this weekend

    you're an amazing writer love
    ♥


  • Nocturne Moderators member
    January 12
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    Looks like a poem, reads like prose - poignant and charged prose.

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