Over two years ago now I made a mistake
One that still costs me to this day
I chose a jerkish boy over a sweet and sensitive guy
The boy, is still but a boy while the guy is now a man
One grew up and the other, did not.
I don't know exactly how to word this, but my soul is in such turmoil right now, I cannot even comprehend it. I thought that after two years the pain, the burning in my chest would die down, at least to a mild simmer but still after all this time, the pain is still a flamming and burning me inside and out. I gave up my chance to be with him all that time ago and I was actually ok with that choice, untill now. Now as I speak with him again and I wonder how I ever thought that thta choice was even remotely the right one. But there is nothing I can do about it now, nothing I can say or do that would turn back the clock and back the years so I could fix the mess I made. So here I sit1
and I regret something
I try to always say forget regret from "Rent" I try to live by that but now...I don't think I can....this is a regret I will always have to live with.
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We all make mistakes
I know how you feel, I am so deeply in love with a man I pushed away because of my past and how I regret it every day, now he is in love with someone that is not me, lol but I am happy for him that he has someone but in the same, it kills me inside. -
Forget regret...
Or life is yours to miss....!
SUCH a good film...
I hope you can move forward...
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