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You know what, I could have been the nicest, happiest, bestest person in the world and she still would of hated me.3
Well that ran smoothly. Lol. I’m sorta upset, but I’m also sorta elated. It’s over. Sorta.
4I’ve realised that my ex-bestfriend just needs to vent her anger and I shouldn’t take it so personally. This does mean that our friendship is over but- Oh well.5
I don’t need her to tell me I’m right, I just need to tell myself. Ha.
I can’t be her good friend no longer because I want to be friends with someone who cares enough to stay friends with me. I don’t want to be friends with someone who wont hold back making me feel like shit.6
I want to know that my friend won’t just stop being my friend because I want to be friends with other people.
- Lol 7I don’t want to be her friend again. But I don’t want to have to ignore her all the time. SHE’S SUCH A BITCH TO ME. 8
I don’t want to be a whiner and say, “Oh, why me? I’ve done nothing! It’s all her fault!” 9
BUT IT’S SOOOOOOOOOOO STUPID!! 10
I’m not just dumbing it down, but am in risk of sounding like it when I say this.11
I started to sit with other friends. --- Now I know this sounds like I’m ditching her. 12
She had had a fight with one of the two people I was sitting with. --- Yeah, even worse.13
But they were my friends, and you don’t want to hear what the fight was about! (I was there and I don’t really know, all I know is that a juice boxes was thrown.)14
---- But I completely agree it was my bad. I even said it to her (TEXTED) “I shouldn’t of sat with Julie when I knew you didn’t like her, a best friend doesn’t do that”--- OHHHHHHHHHHHH- Yeah! The best line. Bitch. She completely ignored me and started firing off at me. I don’t hate her. In fact I’m probably the only person IN THE WORLD that deals with her CRAP! EH! So angry. She treats me like shit! I don’t know why I care anymore. I can’t fight her; she always manages to make me look like the bad one. 15
You know, every time I went to sit with my other friends EVERYTIME, I asked her if she wanted to sit with us. I did. No, seriously. 16
Ugh! I hate it. The worst part is I can’t get her. I deserve to be angry at her, why is she always the one who gets to be angry. It sounds like we’re a married couple doesn’t it? You know what she replied after I told her I didn’t want her to ignore me? She texted -------“I don’t know if I want to speak to you after what you did to me. I mean text is different than in person.” ---------------------- ARE YOU Psycho lady? I have all this evidence why don’t I give you up as a friend? What the F*** did I do to you? Are you going to cry because we mutually ignored each other for a week? Or because you couldn’t stand me sitting with other people?17
Shut up, this is my venting. 18
The reason I don’t give you up friend? It’s because you WERE my friend! I tried to fix it, build a bridge. I SAID SORRY. And I meant it. 19
I said sorry and didn’t expect one in return, I still haven’t asked for one.20
If I was to want a sorry from you, you know what it would be?21
SORRY- ..For not caring about the people who care about you in your life
SORRY – FOR HATING EVERYBODY
SORRY – We’ve been friends for this long, our second fight and you’re ready to throw punches
SORRY – Friends for this long, Fight and I don’t care how much it hurts you I’m still going to say it/TEXT IT!
SORRY- For living life like it’s a Korean DRAMA! I’M AN ACTUAL PERSON!
SORRY – For blaming the fact that everything sucks on me.
SORRY – THAT YOU CAN’T See. No ones perfect. You’re not an exception.
SORRY – For still being a BITCH. When I said sorry.
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Anyways, this is just a bump in the road of life and one day it will all smooth itself over. 
