Dude. be yourself. always

Great advice from a texting bandit of mine.1

And of course I'm going to follow it up with the classic easier said then done bit.
I always told be that...to be themselves and all. I've come to find it is I who needs i most. I have a care of personality, creativity, a burning star in the infanite blackness....unfortunatly the frayed edges of black like to move and mold around people to keep them happy. To keep them away. I have a core, though you will only see it in my art, or with what I wear. 2

Spine? I have one of those too....somewhere. It comes with the territory of keeping people happy...distant. I never relized just how little effort it takes for me to keep people at bay. Keep friends...never best friends. I would always say everybody's my best friend....when really nobody was. I have really good friends. Dependable, fun, honest friends...but I won't give a person the burden of being my best friend. I stretch out my secrets, my faulties. Not a soul knows them all. 3

My texting bandit is getting closer to that position....it scares the ever-living crap outta me! There's so much on the table...I hate it, but Love it....it's all so weird.4

Whoever said being happy was overrated was trying to be cool. i've been pretty chipper lately and I'm loving it.

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  • ixtli
    July 1
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    It's absolutely terrifying when you realize how close you are to certain people! But terrifying in a good way. I know where you're coming from.

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