Could I Be Anymore Crazed?!

Cada día te quiero más que ayer y menos que mañana = I love you more than yesterday, but not as much as tomorrow.

That quote has nothing to do with anything really. I just found it and thought it was kewl. Thanx Kevin. ^^ lol he's one of the greeters.

But I came here because my head is spinning with the thoughts in my head. It's mostly about this guy, Steven. xD I've just got this massive crush on the kid. I've liked him for maybe two years now. We're not like extremely close. We text every now and again and sometimes we exchange words at school. But I get the feeling that really doesn't like me in that way. He knows I like him... he said its something bout the way I look at him. And the fact that I totally told him the truth. lmao

I really wanna ask him out, but what do I know about him? Nothing. I don't know his favorite color. I don't know if he's got a favorite food. I don't even know his last name. I know where he lives cuz I've done him favors and taken him out afterschool if I'm there. But otherwise, he's pretty much a stranger. I know he's friends with my buds Bryar and Barkley, but otherwise.........yeah.....
Everyone keeps saying "you should so ask him out." And then i'm like, okay i got this, i got this. But then I don't have it. And I can't find a moment to ask him. I haven't seen him around skewl as much as I have before (its possible i couldnt scared him off. i think i have the affect on men actually). And I don't wanna ask him thru a text or over the phone. Its so impersonal and almost seems like i really don't care enough to go and ask him. I wanted to ask him out tmrw, but there is something that's telling me that asking him EVER is a bad idea. I could just be being paranoid. But you know, i always tell my friends to listen to me and when they don't, i'm right. So could this be one of those moments? Quite possibly.

I found a quote "If You Don't Ask, The Answer Is Always No" and I feel that kinda applies here. If I don't ask him out, then I won't be able to date him, without a doubt. But if I ask,there's a chance that he could say yes. Just as equally as he could say no. I don't think I'd be devastated if he said no. I refuse to fall into anything more than anyone right now. Twice its happened, and this is where I am. A wrecked person being paranoid over asking a guy out. lmao. I only have these uberly gay moments when I'm talking about crushes. Otherwise, they're just guys.

Argh! I wanna ask, but I don't wanna be shot down before I even take off. xD Guess I'll have to suck it up and grow balls or STFU.