Alone

I can't believe it is another Mother's day. I am usually the kind to cry because I love my mother so deeply

Today is differant

Today should have been my first year getting a little flower basket at church

I should be a mother right now

I should have an infant in my arms, a ring on my finger (one that I didn't buy myself)

I should b smiling and recieving congratulations on my bundle of screaming joy

I should still be up all night with that baby while it cries and screams

I should be so much further by now

Have a g.e.d. and be in college, making something out of myself but instead I am sitting here

My puppy in my lap, sleeping

I should be laying next to him on our bed, the bed we made that child on, made "love" on for hours

This Should be my first Mother's day being a mother

Its not

I will never have that

This day will never mean anything to me, now that I can't have children

Thats right, you read correctly

I will never have children

I am 16 and I will never have another chance, thanks to what he did to me

enough

Rose

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