One of these days, I WILL get over my bulimia.
I have to.
My sister was having her 22nd birthday party (which consisted of just us and our 2 other sisters). We were dancing around, singing stupid songs. I didn't even have more than a tiny piece of the cake.
And I purged.
Worse than that, I cut. I haven't done that in months. Months. I was absolutely over cutting, or so I thought.
Which makes me wonder... what about when I finally kick the bulimia 'for good?'
Will I ever be over this? Will I ever, ever get better? Or am I doomed to live in this hell for the rest of my days?
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This is a very serious issue, but what you have to realize that the answer to these questions are up to you. Do you plan to seek help getting over the bulimia? Do you plan to cut again anytime soon?
Just take it easy. Relax. Let time heal your wounds.
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Mm... I'll seek help for it once I'm out of my parents' house and not financially dependent on them. Till then, I'm going solo.
And I don't plan to cut soon. But then again, I never do.
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