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Visited on Oct 24 2011 11:04 PM
Ok, I live in a tiny town with nothing to do, so Storywrite is my second home. Just so people know thats why I'm on here so much.
My room is my cave, and I rarely leave my cave. No one in my house leaves their cave very often, kind of sucks but oh well.
I'm single but only because I cant find someone thats like me. I love the Italian Renaissance, I love the art, the literature, everything. Art is a big part of my world. I could just sit and stare at any of Sandro Botticelli's paintings. I love musicals and plays. Opera is NOT fat women in togas and viking horns, its an art. A beautiful art and I love opera. Les Miserables, where do I start? Beautiful voices, beautiful set, beautiful costumes. I only wish I could have seen it on Broadway rather then youtube. Lea Salonga makes the best Eponine. One Day More has to be one of the best songs. I love dance, I've never been able to take classes but I don't think one has to have classes to be able to dance. Dance comes from the heart and I can dance. I'm pretty good at it.
If I had my way with style I would be dressing Gothic Aristocrat. Half of my mind is stuck somewhere is the Renaissance and the other half is in the Victorian times. Unfortanatly I cant dress that way entirely, Doesnt stop me from wearing a jabot when I feel like it, nor does it stop me from wearing a black frock coat.
Now I guess I shouldnt have divided my mind into halves because I like many modern things. Manga and anime ar epretty good, SOME anime. I havent seen a manga I really hated and though I'm not to wild about Naruto it does tend to get better everytime I read it. If you hate manga/anime though I'll shut up about it. Don't worry I rarely talk about it anyway. Besides I have a friend on here who hates it with the fire of a thousand suns (word for word as she says it), you know who you are, and I dont talk about it very much do I?
I was abused when I was younger, it changed my life alot. And, later, it started my writing. You can get the idea in some of my poems and stories. Though most of it is dramatized a lot of it is real and some is even word for word.
I'm learning Spanish and I want to learn Japanese or Italian, depends on where I decide to go to college. Japan or Italy. I am Italian but apan is probably the most advanced country when it comes to technology and fashion. I bet that I COULD dress gothic Aristocrat over there.
I know Aristocrat is the guy's style and lolita is the girls but I don't care. I like the guys better, you wont catch me in a lolita dress except at halloween I MIGHT. Cross dressing is probably the best case for me in the lolita/aristocrat area. I'd probably look like a freak in most of those dresses anyway.
My life is tied to my novel completely. It goes, I go. Its going well, I'm content. I started writing it when I had nothing, I even had to smuggle the pen and paper but then, it became my world. When life is just a little to much I pick up my pen or go to my computer and then I see through Sithandra's eyes. No, I'm not shizophrenic, or however you spell it, I know what is real and what is not.
Sithandra's lover, Romulus, is my lover as well. In my mind anyway. I know hes not real but hes everything that I could ever want in anyone. Sithandra trusts him with her life/death (shes a vampire remember?). And speaking of Sithandra she means alot to me as well, more. Shes my friend, my sister, my lover, and my mother all in one. I would give my world to make her real or even find a person like her. To her Romulus is her brother, her friend, and her lover. He's not her father, they know that. She calls him 'my lord' because Ive always wanted to call someone that. He's not royalty, its just a way of showing respect for them.
If you want to know more about me, just ask. I will answer every question anyone asks me. I will answer honestly. Except for, of course, qestions like my address and phone number unless I know you in person.
I uess thats it for now, I dont know whatelse to say and you have plenty to read. The Anne Rice exerpt I leave you is very good I highly recommend her books.
Good Day and Good Night
HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG!
I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didnt have to always deal with society hating me.
I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
REPOST THIS ON YOUR AUTHOR PAGE IF YOU BELIEVE HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG!
The Vampire Armand
If I had thought my transformation into a vampire meant the end of my tutelage or apprenticeship to Marius, I was quite wrong. I wasn't immediately set free to wallow in the joys of my new powers.
The night after my metamorphosis, my education began in earnest. I was to be prepared now not for a temporal life but for eternity.
My Master gave me to know that he had been created a vampire almost fifteen hundred years ago, and that there were members of our kind all over the world. Secretive, suspicious and often miserably lonely, the wanderers of the night, as my Master called them, were often ill prepared for immortality and made nothing of their existence but a string of dreary disasters until despair consumed them and they immolated themselves through some ghastly bonfire, or by going into the light of the sun.
As for the very old, those who like my Master had managed to withstand the passage of empires and epochs, they were for the most part misanthropes, seeking for themselves cities in which they could reign supreme among mortals, driving off fledglings who attempted to share their territory, even if it meant destroying creatures of their own kind.
Venice was the undisputed territory of my Master, his hunting preserve, and his own private arena in which he could preside over the games which he had chosen as significant for him in this time of life.
"There is nothing that will not pass," he said, "except you yourself. You must listen to what I say because my lessons are first and foremost lessons in survival; the garnishes will come later on."
The primary lesson was that we slay only "the evildoer." This had once been, in the foggiest centuries of ancient time, a solemn commission to blood drinkers, and indeed there had been a dim religion surrounding us in antique pagan days in which the vampires had been worshiped as bringers of justice to those who had done wrong.
"We shall never again let such superstition surround us and the mystery of our powers. We are not infallible. We have no commission from God. We wander the Earth like the giant felines of the great jungles, and have no more claim upon those we kill than any creature that seeks to live.
"But it is an infallible principle that the slaying of the innocent will drive you mad. Believe me when I tell you that for your peace of mind you must feed on the evil, you must learn to love them in all their filth and degeneracy, and you must thrive on the visions of their evil that will inevitably fill your heart and soul during the kill.
"Kill the innocent and you will sooner or later come to guilt, and with it you will come to impotence and finally despair. You may think you are too ruthless and too cold for such. You may feel superior to human beings and excuse your predatory excesses on the ground that you do but seek the necessary blood for your own life. But it won't work in the long run.
"In the long run, you will come to know that you are more human than monster, all that is noble in you derives from your humanity, and your enhanced nature can only lead you to value humans all the more. You'll come to pity those you slay, even the most unredeemable, and you will come to love humans so desperately that there will be nights when hunger will seem far preferable to you than the blood repast."
I accepted this wholeheartedly, and quickly plunged with my Master into the dark underbelly of Venice, the wild world of taverns and vice which I had never, as the mysterious velvet-clad "apprentice" of Marius De Romanus, really seen before. Of course I knew drinking places, I knew fashionable courtesans such as our beloved Bianca, but I really didn't know the thieves and murderers of Venice, and it was on these that I fed.
Very soon, I understood what my Master meant when he said that I must develop a taste for evil and maintain it. The visions from my victims became stronger for me with every kill. I began to see brilliant colors when I killed. In fact, I could sometimes see these colors dancing around my victims before I ever even closed in. Some men seem to walk in red-tinged shadows, and others to emanate a fiery orange light. The anger of my meanest and most tenacious victims was often a brilliant yellow which blinded me, searing me, as it were, both when I first attacked and while I drank the victim dry of all blood.
I was at the onset a dreadfully violent and impulsive killer. Having been set down by Marius in a nest of assassins, I went to work with a clumsy fury, drawing out my prey from the tavern or the flophouse, cornering him on the quay and then tearing open his throat as if I were a wild dog. I drank greedily often rupturing the victim's heart. Once the heart is gone, once the man is dead, there is nothing to pump the blood into you. And so it is not so good. But my Master, for all his lofty speeches on the virtues of humans, and his adamant insistence on our own responsibilities, nevertheless taught me to kill with finesse.
"Take it slowly," he said. We walked along the narrow banks of the canals where such existed. We traveled by gondola listening with our preternatural ears for conversation that seemed meant for us. "And half the time, you needn't enter a house in order to draw out a victim. Stand outside of it, read the man's thoughts, throw him some silent bait. If you read his thoughts, it is almost a certainty that he can receive your message. You can lure without words. You can exert an irresistible pull. When he comes out to you, then take him.
"And there is never any need for him to suffer, or for blood actually to be spilt. Embrace your victim, love him if you will. Fondle him slowly and sink your teeth with caution. Then feast as slowly as you can. This way his heart will see you through.
"As for the visions, and these colors you speak of, seek to learn from them. Let the victim in his dying tell you what he can about life itself. If images of his long life trip before you, observe them, or rather savor them. Yes, savor them. Devour them slowly as you do his blood. As for the colors, let them pervade you. Let the entire experience inundate you. That is, be both active and utterly passive. Make love to your victim. And listen always for the actual moment when the heart ceases to beat. You will feel an undeniably orgiastic sensation at this moment, but it can be overlooked. _________________________________________
lets get a few things straight about me.
One, dont piss me off. And when I say don't piss me off I mean DONT piss me off, you wont like me when I'm pissed off, I might kill something.
Two, I hate society. I hate what society teaches people, I hate many people that are a part of our society, I hate what our society is doing to the enviroment. I. Hate. Society.
Three, I am gothic. I couldn't give a shit what you are. But if you're purple and three inches tall I might ask to take your picture.
Four, I am my own person. If I'm going to hell for being my own person well then I can't wait, but I aM my own person.
Five, I'm writing a book. Its called once Awakened the Story of the Vampire Sithandra. Suffer no delusions, steal my book and I will strangle you.
Six, If you're so damn stupid as to have not figured this out by now, I DO cuss. Suffer no delusions about that either
"I have never let schooling interfier with my education,"
- Mark Twain
"Reach up and touch faith!" Marilyn Manson and Depeche Mode
"I don't have pet peeves, I have major psychotic fucking hatreds!" - George Carlin
"Beautiful Marius, beautiful Marius who gave me venice, beautiful Marius give me the Blood." -Amadeo in Blood and Gold
"Even Judas knew he had lied"- The Cross by Within Temptation
"We were certainly uncertain, at least I'm pretty sure I am." - Modest Mouse
One thousand and one nights unseen, the philosopher and the queen-Sahara by Nightwish
"Men have died and worms have eaten the, but not for love"- William Shakespeare
"I used to have an ant farm. At first they wouldn't build any tunnels. I was furious, but then I got straight and serious with my ants. It was all good until they broke out and attacked me. I was forced to kill them all..."
"People look at me strangely because I'm different, and they dont care if that different can help them, they only care that its different." -me
"Fame means when your computer modem is broken, the repair guy comes out to your house a little faster."
"Sex is only dirty if its done right"
"You know the world has gone to hell when you hear someone say "My straight jacket looks better then yours!""-me
"If they knew half of what I knew their fuzzy little heads would explode"- Live Free or Die Hard
"I am the of the body and the poet of the soul, the pleasures of heaven are with me and the pleasures of hell are with me, the first I graft and increase upon myself, the latter I translate"- Walt Whitman
"Sometimes sadness can be beutiful" Amy Lee
"Ever notice how 'what the hell' is always the right descision?" Marilyn Monroe
I cannot die, I, a whore for the cold world- The Poet and the Pendulum by Nightwish
"Death that hath sucked the honey of they breath hath had no power yet upon thy beauty"-Romeo Montegue in Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet
If Abercrombie and Fitch said breathing was'nt cool then 92% percent of Americans wouls die. If you would be in the 8% laughing their butts off then post this on your profile!
I have Picture It! on my computer and I make banners, wallpapers, posters, and stuff like that all the time. I *might* make one for you if you bug me and im interested. I dont make happy-preppy ones though for 2 reasons (1) I dont have those kinds of pictures on my computer which I flat out refuse to stuff with pictures I'll only use one time, and (2) I'm the one making them and I said so.
I prefer to make vampire ones or ones that show goth/punk/metal bands (I have a buttload of VERY good band pics pics, same with vampire pics, mostly featuring Lestat and the other Chronicles Vampires)
Name: Violet/ Robyn
Nicknames: Violet Hawthorn, Vi (pronounced VEE or VYE your choice)Bloodkissed, Robynbird (Call me this and die)
Birthday: January 12
Place of Birth: Conway, AR
Male or Female: well last time I checked I was a girl, but that was the last time I checked....
School: A cursed place that can burn in hell for all eternity
Hair Color: Brown (but I want black)
Hair Length: about or 5 inches past my shoulders
Eye color: brown (but I want blue)
Height: 5 foot 3 or 4 last I checked
Glasses: Not yet
Piercings: just the normal ones (ear lobes)
Right or Left handed: Right
First Love: Alex (Evil cheating idiot)
Movie: Queen of the damned, underworld (both), Interview with the vampire, you get the idea vampire movies I dont have a favorite
Song Right Now: ThePoet and the Pendulum by Nightwish
Friends: Chelsea, Deanna, Sara, Meagan, Kaite, and Tori
Sweet: chocolate...but I cant eat it with braces...thats not to say I dont eat it with braces
Footwear: I just like black ballet shoes
Single or Taken: Single,I'm trying to find the right person (is it to much to ask for some one who I DONT scare off)
Online: No, I'm not online this is just my computer that can surf the internet without actually going ON the internet (FEEL the sarcasm?)
Thinking About: thats personal
Wanting To: thats...umm personal as well
Watching: Nothing, tv is a window to hell...wait a minute...wheres my remote?
Wearing: red silk pants and a black silk shirt
Want Kids: yes, a boy and a girl. But I may adopt, the latest news going around is that birth actually hurts
Want to be Married: Yes
Where do you want to live: Conway, Arkansas or somewhere in Italy or Japan
Car: silver volvo (Think Edward Cullen from Twilight)
__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex___
Hair color: dark brown or black
Hair length: LONG i dont think guys with short hair look very cute. Guys should break the short hair rule
Eye color: blue or green and shiny
Appearances: doesnt really mattter as much as you ma think but the long hair thing is very important. They have to have long hair and be willing to pull it into a ponytail and tie it with a ribbon like in the 1800's, and not only on halloween
Lips or Eyes: Eyes
Hugs or Kisses: that depends. I like the really romantic deep (not nessisarily french) kisses and the strong loving hugs, embraces if you will
Short or Tall: slightly taller than me so I can lay my head on their shoulder
Easygoing or serious: Both but know when to be which
Romantic or Spontaneous: REALLY romantic. Like the kinds of person that would call me Ma Cherie
Personality: Romantic, loving, smart, and able to play an instrument
Sweet or Caring: both
Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: a little bad like me but knowing when to keep me out of trouble
___Have you ever______
Had Alcohol: Champagne and wine, not much more
Ran Away From Home: Nope, i was going to a few years ago but I didnt get the chance dhr stepped in
Been with someone: define been with...
Broken Someones Heart: I tried not to but I was thirteen he was twelve and he asked me to marry him. WAY to obbsessed and annoying. He moved dont really know how he took it.
Cried When Someone Died: Yea but it wasnt right away. Not even at the funeral. It was actually a few years later that I REALLY started getting upset about it. It was my moms death
Cried At School: Yes, alot I'm teased mercilessly all the time, it took along time but i have finally managed not to care what other people think...doesnt stop me from crying though
___Do You Believe In___
God: Yes, but not quite the way the bible says
Miracles: of course
Love At First sight: yes but I am yet to have it happen to me
Ghosts: Yes. I havent seen the ghost its self but I have been in a room with a ghost watching it move stuff around
Aliens: yes there is to much proof for me not to
Soul Mates: Yes
Kissing on The First Date: hell yeah!
Horoscopes: no, they can be fun to read but I dont believe in them. if they are right its just coincidence because the one that writes them doesnt even know you
Ok, lets get a few things straight. Blood, guts, vomit, doesnt bug me. I joke about having a weak stomach in reality I dont. I like to sing. I suck at singing. But I like to sing. Know this, if I know a song I will sing it and your ears will bleed. I celebrate ALL holidays. To me April fools day IS an official holiday that SHOULD be celebrated by not having to go to school. I will prank you and you should be very afraid. I also celebrate st patricks day. I will wear green. If you dont and I see you you WILL get pinched. If you want to stab me in the back dont I've had to many people do that to me, friends and family alike. Pick somewear else and you better aim good cause your only going to get one shot before I kill you. I love vampires, deal with it. I am a writer, and I think I'm a damn good one. You dont like it well that just sucks for you now doesnt it? I HAVE taken up the title of Vampire Writer. My poems reflect my feelings. If its a happy poem I was happy, if its a sad poem I was sad, if its a poem about evil murder written in vast detail well then you should run then shouldnt you? I am NOT a very patient person but when I know my being patient would annoy someone greater then they annoy me when they try my patients you would be AMAZED at how patient I can be.
....why arent you running?
The single truest think ever said by maankind....
"It is common in our society for people to plan their lives by observing what others are doing and then doing the same thing. Value is based on the approval of others and so everyone is looking at everyone else to make sure they look, talk, and act hte same way. Behavior outside of the accepted norm is often thought of as wierd, uncomfortalbe, strange or undesirable, regardless of the benefits it might provide"
And I dont even know who said it, but we have to be careful with this knowledge. If word got out about this people would explode at the simplicity of it all.
My SW Family (I wish it was bigger) If you want to be added just ask, I'm looking for a mother and father. I dont mind having multiple siblings, cousins, and aunts or uncles. And people to keep up with parts of my mind are very welcome
My Twin sister- Midnightmare
The other half of my brain and the other half of myself- XXEmoxAnimexFaerieXx
The one who makes me laugh (from happiness)- Tay Tay Renee
The one who makes me laugh (in a sadistic kind of way)- Synthetic Nightmare
Just Me - Taylor
I'm afraid, so afraid
Of being raped again and again and again
I know I will die alone, but loved
You live long enough to hear the sound of the gunss
Long enough to find yourself screaming in the night
Long enough to see your friends betray you
For years, I've been strapped unto this altar
Now I only have three minutes and counting
I just wish the tide would catch me first and give
me a death I always longed for
From The Poet and the Pendulum by Nightwish