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I am a man of many complications... as well as a madman with a conscience...
I was born into christianity but i'm more of a taoist, atleast i believe I am... most of how I think and feel about myself and the world around me is part of the descriptions i've read up on taoism, so I guess I must be. but it is kinda difficult being a taoist, and yet being born into the christian faith, or atleast it feels difficult for me, I can't speak for other in the same boat as me. ...You know, having in my heart the feeling everything in this world is full of life... and yet having lived with a religion where it is believed that one force created the whole universe, and that my species was born from sand and tears... AND YET beileveing that we evolved from chimps... i'm a very complicated person. I'm mostly a neutral person, i'm both good and evil, I think that good people deserve the very best in life, full of good fortune and etirnal happiness... and bad people like Adolf Hitler deserve very horrrible things that I could write a book on that describes the means of which how i believe their etirnal soul is to be punished for etirnity and even beyond the end of time and reality itself as they scream in unbearable pain and agony... see, particularly good, and VERY particularly evil, and by particular i mean specific. Becuase as a good person can do bad deeds, and vice versa, sometimes (depending on what i-t is) I think that certain people deserve less or the opposite of what they got...
in any case I was born in the early 90's, all the mystic stuff I've read up says i'm a romantic dreamer (extermely romantic), i'm a good person, and that i'm very intelligent. but it also said I speak my mind... and yes that does get me into trouble sometimes... and it said I was self pitying, and truthful to a point where it gets to be a... cold... honesty, and I can be exceptionally... lengthy... whatever. I believe in reincarnation... I understand the implications of such a thing (i feel sorry for the reicarnation of hitler, HNNN), as in, if it can be proven who is the reincarnation of someone who died the same moment as the moment of their birth... well people would expect certain... things... about them. In any case, I am young, and i'm old, and i'm childish... but all to an extent of course. Extent, I believe, is a measure of the universe, and reality itself... I mean think about it, all of everything that exists, our actions, our understanding of all IS AND MUST BE TO AN EXTENT. Have to much of absoluitely anything at all and it consumes you, burns you out, or even... kills you (drugs, food, too much thinking, sex, that live "to the extreme" or "till it hurts bullshit", ect.). Have to little and you starve to death, get so depressed you kill yourself... or go psycho and have too much at one time so instantly that you... Over Dose... (case in point, I miss my cousin Michael... we had him cremated... I loved him like he was an older brother... so no JUST ONE MORE HIT COULDN'T HURT!)... incredibly f'ing long story short... I could write a book about myself, I tried but my pc fucked up on me and i lost like 40 paragraphs so I decided, FUCK IT!
points 1 to infinity 1. I'm a manic type lover
2. I've grown to be the kinda guy who thanks the stars above that hell DOES exist so that the assholes who have so horribly mistreated others (regardless of age, gender, race, sexuality, or circumstance (as the victimizer) can burn in etirnal pain, damnation, and suffering for their actions.
3. I hate racists of all colors and nations, and I believe as a white american man that accepting what they say when they call me things that mean that I PERSONALLY am resonsible for their troubles and thus I allow them to do things I OTHERWISE would have thought was wrong, ends up making me a reverse racist so FUCK YOU!!!
4.I love the feeling of the sky from an impending storm.
5.I love the feeling of how when I see something in a certain way that it seems no one else has it makes me feel like i'm so much more than I am.
6. I hate when I see something in a certain way (which makes me feel important) and I try to show what I see to others they just can't see or they don't seem to care. 7.sometimes I hate being different.
8.other times it feels like being different is the only reason I have to keep living.
9.I hate most humans regardless of race, color, sexual orient, nationality, religion, lifestyle, and anything else I might of should but didn't mention... they care only about only themselves as they dance in their sinful delight as they take drugs and alcohol and scream in pleasure of their actions, taking no account to WHO THEIR ACTIONS MIGHT AFFECT... while the rest slaughter some and rape others and defile the lives of those who DO NOT deserve it, however they think they do because they are different, they are not them, and they must be destroyed before they contaminate them, and they preach about them in ways that make their victims sound like the spawns of satan himself... it sounds horrible... but I myself take GREAT pleasure in knowing what waits for them in the afterlife... for there is NO salvation in death for them... >|}
10. I am a SELF poet, if that makes sense.
11."I am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world."
~Albert Einstein ;Mister e=mc*2* himself said it so all those that mocked me for my imagination can go fuck yurselves *finger*
12.Some may think I see the world for what it is... this is a LIE... I see the world as it SHOULD be... F.Y.I. if the human race does not start going the straight and narrow as a species it will burn away as its mother breathes it's last till the final moment... and orbits space for the rest of time... as a dead world deviod of any form of life... this is but one focus of my hatred for human kind.
13.I threaten to beat people with illogical things like vegetables and other such.
14.I'm the kinda guy who puts poems of happiness, light, and hope into categories of sadness, loss, and depression to screw with the system and all around me
15. songs like this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mo0vjUEO_v8&feature=related remind me that for all the hate I am filled with, just as much love if not more resides within me as well .
16. If you don't like me, go the hell away cause I know i'm friends with good people, and yes i'm saying you are a bad person; if you need me for something then ask me and if I can't help then it's not my fault the things you need are beyond me and that is absolutely no excuse to call me... a lesser person; god does not play favorites, you have no right to play god and favor someone over me, I am a living being with a beating heart of my own and the mere fact I am more noticeably different than some does not give you the right to single me out and rally others in anger for your own dark and selfish purposes.
17. ... do you know why I believe Dante Aligheri's "Devine Comedy" otherwise know as "Dante's Inferno" is likely my favoritest book of all time... those of black hearts, the sinners, the damned, get what they deserve and do to this very instant
18.I am coldly factual when angry, kind hearted when crazy, and considerate of others when I think. If I hate you it's for a damn lot of too many good reasons to put in detail in a paragraph. And if I like you it's because I enjoy your words and your company.
Gay/Bisexual/Lesbian/Straight : Over decades, Homosexuals and Bisexuals have been riticuled and hated against because of their sexual orientation. I post this on my page to say that I am proud of my sexuality but I will not try to change someone or hate someone for theirs.
19.I have had many friends.. and while I forgotten many things... I try not to forget them... they just look different and as so I do not recognize them... quite a few times that's happened... QUITE a few... irratating cause i'm like "uhh....' and they're like "remember with the thing" and i'm like "omg that's really you omg!" :J
I'm COMPLETELY straight, I get a sick feeling thinking of myself involved in such a manner, but I don't gag or something when I see same sex couples kiss or what not, I don't care what your orientation is, it's your business, I treat them like any other couple, I look away a bit when they kiss but I sort of glance abit at them and think *sigh* I hope I meet a girl life that someday, and if they do... more... than that, I raise a ruckus and go I'm RIGHT HERE WTF! If you think that hate crimes against homosexual and bisexuals is wrong then post this on your profile with your sexual orientation beneath it. Thanks for your support.
Nyancat fan? post it on yur front page... and remember, this is why earth cats and space poptarts don't mix... XD I will not apoligize cause i'm busy laughing too hard!