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Well this is the place in which you find out about an author right? Well what if the author doesn't want to be known, wouldn't this make knowing that author impossible? Quite fitting that the author of this work is not a person but a Desire. And i desire to be alive!.
Don't get what i mean aye? well let me throw away my other side and teach you.
Imagine yourself alone, in the dark, away from all you friends and family and everything that makes you feel warm and loved. Even the feeling makes you shiver, makes you cold. Now imagine being there for years never knowing love only loneliness, anger, pain, only your thoughts to keep you company as the ones you loved seem to grow further and further away. Feel it? deep inside. The yearning to hurt, to cause pain to do anything to feel something other then the loneliness. The small crying little girl in the corner of the black room, screaming out for someone, trying to hide herself in the shadows, trying to get away from the pain, the suffering. She is part of me. Release didn't come to her, no matter how she tried her family didn't understand her, didn't acknowledge her, didn't see her pain, didn't even know she was there. Friends...were illusions, a thing that only other people could grasp cause how was she supposed to show emotion when no emotion was ever shown to her....so she hides. hides in the dark recesses of her mind. there out came those thoughts, out came her desire. Out came me. i was their to protect her i was there to take the pain for her...cause i liked it.
Now after all this time she has found someone to hold her to keep her safe to make her feel but her pain is still there, it grew too deep into her soul. the yearning to hurt, to cause pain. So i remain, i am Odyne and i am yearning for you to make me feel alive!
"i have always been....different if you can say that, i have never been used to being round people i have never known why, you could say i really know what goes on in this world and it scares me."
"Normal life seemed worryingly ridiculous. She didn't exactly want to push people away, it was just that she had this unhappy view of the world, no matter how much she might not want it, and it made her suffer..."
have you ever felt like there is something out there felt like there is something beyond what we normally can see.....well i do i cant not do, from what i have seen and what i have experienced, another world has just opened up. i see what you see but more i see the dark in everyone i see the need to hurt and cause pain even if you dont feel it i see it, this might make me sound like a crack pot i probably am but if you read this.
one more thing i have to say,i have to ask people who write anything mystical or dark, tell me you all deep inside have a longing to be what you write, in your head you see yourself in your writing this is what makes your writing good, if people dont see this when they write then they are not going to go very far writing about the dark side because you need to be able to see yourself there if you wish other people to see it the way you want them to.
hope you like my work...i hope your dying to read more. comment and i may fill your desire