Frozen Angel• Show stories

Alright, it says to describe myself, so I guess this is my mission with the next thing I write on this page.

Well, first of all, my name is not of any importance. It never will be unless I enter show business. I'm still debating the idea, even though I know I probably never make it and my parents will never approve of it. I'm just counting on my stubborness to help me out. By the way, if you really must know my name, it is right beside the copyright sign on any of my stories. Not that you care or anything. Or do you?

I was born in Thailand, an extremely small country in Asia. Even if I find it a very interesting place, I have absolutely no desire to go back. I've been living in America for about nine years now; ever since I was adopted at the age of five. I no longer speak my native langauge due to the fact that I had forgotten it by the time I had learned English three months after my arrival in America.

I live in this world, with a very large disadvantage. Well, at least in my mind. I am very young with a rapidly maturing brain that is too fast for my own good. I have ideas that I like to express, but since I am young enough to still be limited by others supriority, I do not make them known. Is this a good thing? I don't know. This is why writing is very important to me. I can express myself in a totally roundabout way. Controversy and ideals can still exist without revealing everything I think. 

Responding to the last sentence in the previous paragraph, I have my own secrets. In fact, you really shouldn't know this much about me. If you knew me personally, you WOULDN'T know this much about me. I like to hide. At least until it is legal to be on my own (in another excruciating four years). This is when I'll be able to make my own dreams come true instead of being forced into the life where they attempt to make me into carbon copies of someone else. I am an individual. Don't you forget it. 

Okay, onto art and all that jazz. I LOVE music. Although it is not the air I breathe, the food I eat, et cetera, et cetera, I don't think I could live without it. It is my lifestyle, if not, my life. My favorite music has some sort of meaning and the ability to be relatable. This is why my music collection excludes rap. No, I don't want to hear your objections.
     My favorite artist of all time is Madonna. I'm not sure who DOESN'T know that...It is not because she is a fantastic singer (everyone knows she's okay, to say the least), but she is the most amazing entertainer out there in the music business. She's also very controversial (something I want to be if I discover my power to make people listen) and she's survived the entertainment business for over twenty-five years. I envy her success. 
     Music continues to be one of my main sources for inspiration. I love studying lyrics and being able to connect to them. To me, this is the most important trait a song has to have. I also like the fact that music is universial; everyone can understand it.
     Right now, my music tastes are going back and forth between Grace Slick (acid rock), Madonna (and other 80's artists), and country music. I do not enjoy the teenybopper people like the Disney Channel artists or Taylor Swift and the other teens that sing about breaking up with their boyfriends and how it's the end of the world. I can't believe other teenagers can actually identify with that crap.

Controversy is AMAZING. Controversial people always fascinate me because they are audacious and not afraid to say what they want. This is why I have huge fascinations with 
 
 -Madonna
 -Marilyn Monroe
 -Eva Peron
 -Cher

I also have a very messed up mind. Along with the mental issues I have (these being anxiety attacks, depression, and somewhat anorexia), I also have huge fascinations with

 -Abuse
 -The WWII Holocaust
 -Mental Disorders
 -People in the foster care/ophanage systems (and the custody cases that go along with them)

One thing you should always keep in mind when you are around me is the fact that I am extremely stubborn. If you try to control me or change my mind when I have my heart set on something, I'll tell you to go tell someone who really cares because I will not listen...got it?

That's it for now. Have fun reading the rest of my page. Are you glad you just wasted your time on my pointless bio?
 
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To give you a look inside my brain, thoughts, and life, I present this list to you.

I...
-am 14
-like Starbucks Coffee
-am obsessed with controversy
-strive to create a legacy in my lifetime
-have the greatest fear of being forgotten
-yearn to make a difference in this world
-have a favorite color of lime green
-think teenyboppers have no clue what they are talking about
-am a little bit of everything that people love and hate
-believe men are nothing without a woman, no matter how big thier ego is
-believe nothing ever changes in this world; we just give different names
-am a modern day hippie
-judge and am judged
-have a favorite number of seven and not because it is considered lucky
-am considered to be in a "time warp"
-hope to send a message to all of those who are willing to listen through art
-hate the word hate, but still use it frequently
-am a hyprocrite most of the time because I cannot understand myself
-respect different viewpoints even if I disagree
-adore all of my teachers
-envy those with inner freedom
-sing because my voice is the only instrument I like
-write because I can express everything, true or false
-cry when no one is looking because I was never comforted by my family
-am afraid to show weakness because many disapprove of it
-am fascinated by the 50's and the 80's era
-am stubborn
-can hide my true personality pretty well
-will be a shrew at times
-hang out with a lot of guy friends
-think fishnet clothing is cool
-love whoever invented the corset
-am nicknamed the Soap Opera Queen even though I've never watched one
-love musicals and theater performaces
-love to read romance novels
-can be very arguementive
-am convinced love is (not) an illusion (amymore)
-believe the Bible is the greatest book ever written, even if it may be false
-despise the answer "Because I said so"
-am willing to be covinced otherwise when it comes to religion
-do not like bowing down to a god that may or may not exist
-believe in improving myself instead of letting a higher spirit do it for me
-don't really care what you think of me

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Some Basic Facts...

Age: 14
Gender: Female
Hair Color: black/dark red, depending if the sun is shining on it
Eye Color: black/brown, depending if I am outside or not
Ethnicity: asian - Thai
Height: 5'3
Horoscope: aquarius
Family: adoptive mother and father and older brother 
Pets: a beagle named Maybelle
Religion: Deism
Sexual Orentation: straight
Element Sign: air

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Favorites...

Female Singers: Madonna, Grace Slick, Pat Benatar, Cyndi Lauper, Martina Mcbride, Cher, Faith Hill, Kellie Pickler, Gretchen Wilson, Carrie Underwood.

Male Singers: Tim Mcgraw, Bob Seger, Ronan Keating.

Music Groups: Jefferson Airplane, Heart, Little Big Town, Sugarland.

Actresses: Marilyn Monroe, Elizabeth Taylor, Julia Roberts, Sandra Bollock, Abagail Breslin, Cher, Susan Sarandon, (and somewhat) Madonna.

Actors: Hugh Grant, Eddie Murphy, Denzel Washington.

Movies: Evita, Some Like it Hot, Erin Brockovich, Bus Stop, A League of Their Own, Mask, Moonstruck.

Authors: Nicholas Sparks, Sandra Brown, JoAnn Ross, Nora Roberts.

Books: I Am The Messenger, Night, Redeeming Love, The First Time, My Story.

Songs: Devil Wouldn't Reconize You, Frozen, Concrete Angel, Forbidden Love, Hell is For Children, You're The Voice, True Colors, Time After Time.

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My Phobias...

Athazagoraphobia - Being forgotten
Thanatophobia - Dying
Scelerophobia - Being harmed by wicked people
Taphephobia - Being buried alive
Cancerophobia - Getting cancer
Agraphobia - Being sexually abused

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My Storywrite Family -  

Sister: Coffee Cat, http://storywrite.com/Coffee%20Cat

Sister: Jayjay16, http://storywrite.com/Jayjay16

Brother: Voldo, http://storywrite.com/voldo

Older Sister: Miss Hanako Megumi, http://storywrite.com/Miss%20Hanako%20Megumi

Cousin: Key to My Heart, http://storywrite.com/Key%20to%20my%20Heart

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Misc. Stuff:

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My name is Sarah
I am but three,
My eyes are swollen
I cannot see,
I must be stupid
I must be bad,
What else could have made
My daddy so mad?
I wish I were better
I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my mommy
Would still want to hug me.
I can't speak at all
I can't do a wrong
Or else I'm locked up
All the day long
When I awake
I'm all alone
The house is dark
My folks aren't home.
When my mommy does come
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe I'll get
Just one whipping tonight
Don't make a sound!
I just heard a car
My daddy is back
From Charlie's Bar.
I hear him curse
My name he calls
I press myself
Against the wall.
I try and hide
From his evil eyes
I'm so afraid now
I'm starting to cry.
He finds me weeping
He shouts ugly words,
He says its my fault
That he suffers at work.
He slaps me and hits me
And yells at me more,
I finally get free
And I run for the door.
He's already locked it
And I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me
Against the hard wall.
I fall to the floor
With my bones nearly broken,
And my daddy continues
With more bad words spoken.
"I'm sorry!" I scream
But its now much too late
His face has been twisted
Into unimaginable hate.
The hurt and the pain
Again and again
Oh please God, have mercy!
Oh please let it end!
And he finally stops
And heads for the door,
While I lay there motionless
Sprawled on the floor.
My name is Sarah
And I am but three,
Tonight my daddy
Murdered me.

We need to stop child abuse!
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Abuse Awareness; Videos you should check out:

Concrete Angel - Martina McBride: http://youtube.com/watch?v=9V4DnndVayg

Hell is for Children - Pat Benatar (Awareness video): http://youtube.com/watch?v=zKASV2Effoo

A Man's Home is His Castle - Faith Hill: (Slideshow, just listen to song)http://youtube.com/watch?v=znsflySlhA0

Wild Ponies - Kellie Pickler: http://youtube.com/watch?v=AA3q1JaEQ_k (Another Slideshow)

Goodbye Earl - Dixie Chicks: http://youtube.com/watch?v=GovJ4jAnr14

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To all of the racist minds out there...

When I was born, I was black.
When I grow up, I'm black.
When I go into the sun, I'm black.
When I'm cold, I'm black.
When I'm scared, I'm black.
When I get sick I'm black.
When I die, I'm still black.

But you,
When you born, you're pink.
When you grow up, you're white.
When you go in the sun, you're red.
When you cold, you're blue.
When you scared, you're yellow.
When you get sick, you're green.
When you die, you're gray.

And you're calling me colored?

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*98 percent of teenagers have tried pot. If you are one of the 2% who hasn't, post this on your profile*

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