Dark Emo Koji• Show stories

Hey yea I’m Koji. I’m 15 years old.. I live in the gayest state in the United States. I love writing and reading but I hate English.. I like writing about death and kiling myself. sometimes cutting. I have a couple of stories but they aren't posted well one is.. but i do have a lot of poems. .Hope ya like. I am not single anymore woot..




Dear Diary:

Mood: Apathetic.

My life is spiraling downward.
I couldn't get enough money to go to the
Blood Red Romance and Suffocate me dry concert.
It sucks 'cause they play some of my favorite songs
like "Stab My Heart Because I Love You" and
"Rip Apart My Soul" and of course,
"Stabby Rip Stab Stab".
And it doesn't help that I couldn't
get my hair to do that flippy thing.
Like that guy from that band can do.
Some days you know...

'I'm an emo kid, non-conforming as can be
You'd be non-conforming too if
you looked just like me
I have paint on my nails and make-up on my face
I'm almost emo enough to start shaving my legs
'Cause I feel real deep when I'm dressing in drag
I call it freedom of expression,
most just call me a fag
'Cause our dudes look like chicks,
and our chicks look like dykes
'Cause emo is one step below transvestite!

Stop my breathing and slit my throat
I must be emo
I don't jump around when I go to shows
I must be emo

I'm dark, and sensitive with low self-esteem
The way I dress makes every day feel like Halloween
I have no real problems but I like to make believe
I stole my sister's mascara now
I'm grounded for a week.
Sulking and writing poetry are my hobbies
I can't get through a Hawthorne
Heights album without sobbing
Girls keep breaking up with me,
it's never any fun.

They say they already have a pussy,
they don't need another one

Stop my breathing and slit my throat
I must be emo
I don't jump around when I go to shows
I must be emo
Dye in my hair and polish on my toes
I must be emo
I play guitar and write suicide notes
I must be emo

My life is just a black abyss,
you know, it's so dark.
And it's suffocating me.
Grabbing hold of me and tightening its grip,
tighter than a pair of
my little sister's jeans...
which look great on me by the way.

When I get depressed I cut my
wrists in every direction
Hearing songs about getting
dumped give me an erection
I write in a live journal and
wear thick rimmed glasses
I tell my friends I bleed black
and cry during classes
I'm just a bad, cheap, imitation of goth,
You can read me "Catcher in the
Rye", and watch me jack off.
I wear skin tight clothes while hating my life
If I said I like girls, I'd only be half right!

I look like I'm dead and dress like a homo
I must be emo
Screw XBox, i play old school Nintendo
I must be emo
I like to whine and hit my parentals
I must be emo
Me and my friends all look like clones
I must be emo

My parents just don't get me, you know.
They think I'm gay just because
they saw me kiss a guy.
Well, a couple guys. But I mean, it's the 2000's.
Can't 2 ... or 4 dudes make-out with
each other without being gay?
I mean, chicks dig that kind of thing anyways.
I don't know diary,
sometimes I think you're the only one that gets me,
you're my best friend...
I feel like tacos!

~ABOUT ME!~
Name:: Ashlei
Age:: 15
Hair color:: black/brown
Eye Color:: Hazeal
Height:: 5'2"
Birthday:: 8/30
Shoe Size:: 7 n mens 8 n women
Heritage:: German, French, Irish, Indian,

~FAVORITES~
Movie:: Moon Child
Tv Show:: Life of Ryan, Cased Closed
Color:: red/silver/black/white
Friends:: all of em
Sport:: football, Soccer
Number:: 54, 9
Season:: summer nd fall
Food:: all
Drink:: vault, life water

~HAVE YOU EVER~
Been in love:: mmhmm
Made out with just a friend:: nope
How many times:: 0
Kissed Someone:: yes
Hurt someone you love:: sadly yes
Been cheated on:: YES!!!!
Cheated on someone:: no
Been with someone who had a bf/gf:: no
Cried during a movie:: no
Been Drunk:: Yes loads of times
Done something you regret:: mmhmm

~LASTS PERSON~
You Hugged:: Megan
You kissed:: haven’t kissed some one in like a year so it would have been Ryan
That spent the night with you:: Kayla
You spent the night with:: Tony
To call you:: Case
You called:: Dustan
You went to a movie with:: sadly my mom ( I was forced to GO!!!!)
You went shopping with:: My mom 
You sang with:: No one
That sang to you:: No one
That text you:: Dustan
Saw you cry:: no one
You said bye to:: Dustan

~LOVE~
Single or Taken:: now? single
First Kiss:: Anthony
First Crush:: Anthony
Currently in love:: Yes with a guy who doesn’t love me.
Favorite hair color:: black, nd brown
Favorite style:: on a guy long

~DO YOU~
Trust easily:: no
Dye your hair:: once
Twirl your hair:: sometimes really when Im nervous
Wear contacts:: sometimes
Wear glasses:: sometimes
Have piercings:: ears, tongue, lip
Have any tattoos:: one
Have a car:: no
Have a job:: yes subway
Have a cell phone:: not any more(got taken away)

~FRIENDS~
Best friend:: none. I don’t do the best friend thing
Smartest:: the ppl that are older than me.
Funniest:: Jarvis nad Damon
Always has a bf:: Amanda
Known longest:: Andrew, Darren, Derek,Jamie, Ryan, Cody,
Known shortest:: Dustan, Mike, Phil, Case
Most shy:: Phil
Most outspoken:: me, Adam, Jarvis, nd Damon
Atheletic:: Jeremy, Jordan

~ARE YOU~
Sarcastic:: yes
Outgoing:: yes
Messy:: sometimes
Friendly:: yep
A daydreamer:: hell yea
Laidback:: sometimes

~CURRENT~
Clothes:: tight black pants, I heart emo boys shirt, and black vans
Mood:: apathetic
Hair style:: straight and shoulder length
Song your listening to:: Emo Song
Thing you should do:: not get into trouble, punch someone and kiss someone for a dare
Grade:: 10

~RANDOM~
Nervous habit:: curling my hair, biting my nails
Can you whistle:: no
Can you roll your tounge:: no
Miss anyone:: yes Matt(the one I love), Ryan(my ex bf who is died) Cody(who is died), Darren & Jamie( who moved
Like School:: sometimes
Biggest Fear:: Geese, nd that preppie people will take over
Best feeling in the world:: loving someone and being loved nd when you slide a knife over your wrist when the first sting comes
Worst feeling in the world:: gettin shot, stabbed, having you bf die right in front of you